I remember the day that I discovered this song, I was swimming in heart break creating happiness in the middle of denile. I just wanted my ex fiance to understand that she was not only messing up her own life but she was effectively killing me. I was having panic attacks and constantly sad. I was drinking ALL OF THE TIME it was almost like the amount of liquor had no real impact on me because the amount just increasing but the level of intoxication never elevated. The alcohol became sleeping pills because that is all that I did when I drank. I cried and fell asleep, or I was drinking with a group of friends where drinking is literately all they are good for, they bring nothing else worth it to the table.
Just like the lyrics in the song I wanted her to take responsibility for not only how I was feeling but also for the healing I felt I required to feel better. I wanted her to just come back to me so we could fix the issue together. I wanted her to realize that nothing good would come to her if she kept on trying to cheat her way to happiness. I kept on trying to get her to just talk to me and explain to me what her actual issues were. Until this day, I still do not really know what was the straw the broke the camels back. Until this day I still believe that to an extent it was not her or I that tor our relationship apart, it was God coming in and saving my life and telling my ex ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I love my ex very much but the fact is she is selfish she is inconsiderate and if you take a look at her life today and compare it to when she was with me the choice she made served her no benefit at all and almost every month that goes by since she has left her life is getting worse and worse. I decided I wanted to be in her life no matter how crazy it sounds or what it is that she had done or will do because I honestly loved her. It was and is still one of the hardest things I will ever have to do in my life. One day as I was leaving therapy I started to think about my situation and then like a crazy person in the movies I went from wiping tears from my eyes to laughing out loud my stomach started to hurt. The idea that I was the one at the advantage as well as the one that was hurting the most showed me some doors that god has been trying to open in my life. First thing "I kept putting bulletproof vest on my relationship when god tried to kill it a very long time ago" I kept saving a dead situation when I should have said rest in peace. Second thing was I realized that I am not the one that has to start over with almost nothing. I am not the one with a shifty living situation and no real support with a whole other issue growing inside of me. I am not confused about my sexuality or where I will be in the next few months. It hit me MORGEN YOU ARE AT THE ADVANTAGE WHAT ARE YOU DOING! I gave it all to GOD and it was no turning back. I started reading again studying the bible and focusing more on me. I stopped wishing that she would come back and found happiness alone without her. Shorty after that god started walking a different class of women into my life. I started talking to college students with more ambition than what was displayed by my ex. I started talking to more independent women who actually were and not just saying how independent they were when I knew that I was the one fronting the financial burden of our union or getting help from my family members. Then the day came, My ex sent me a photo and I didn't find her beautiful anymore. i looked at the photo and seen a woman that was doing bad, someone who was not taking care of herself the way that I am used to her taking care of herself, she didn't even look like she smelled as good as I remember her smelling. That photo was the day that I officially fell out of love and let go. This song helped me through my storm and I still listen to it. This is a good vibe and it helped me learn to take control of my feelings and instead of begging for her to hold on to me and not let go I got a grip on the lord and I do not plan on ever letting go.
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Very motivational and powerful song encouraging young adults as well as elders to live their best possible life. Great message for the children as well as a song that I often go to when I am hurting or sad. It is an uplifting song, it has a powerful message and after I listen to it I feel so much better. I know Jahan personally as we grew up in the same area. To watch how he grows and the things he does with his music motivates me to be better everyday. Support him
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AuthorAvid hip-hop head however I do love all kinds of music. Music can inspire so many different kinds of emotions and feelings from people. Music is a lot of people's only teacher or only parent. ArchivesCategories |