Recently I was faced to come to terms with one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with in my adult life. We have all had breakup's happen to us and some of us have cried and really felt the pain of it all. Not that many of us find our way out of a bad breakup without trust issues, without hate in your heart. Most of us bring that into our next relationship, and honestly we cannot blame our next for the wrongs of our EX.
Many times we rush into a new situation because we miss the comfort of that body on our flesh. We miss the safety of a relationship, we miss having someone no matter how empty you or that someone is. In so many cases we have so much work to do on ourselves we just give up and try to throw that load on our relationship. We cannot enter a relationship missing pieces of ourselves and expect our spouse to glue us back together and repair us so that we are whole. It is our responsibilities to ourselves to make ourselves whole, to find purpose and fulfillment within our own skin. Our inner peace comes from our spirituality, our faith in god and our ability to trust that god has a plan for our lives. When disaster strikes we should not fear or settle rather we should face our fears rise up and meet them head on and tell the devil not today sir. As I walk down this path, I get weak, I meet women I want them! And that brings me to this message today! My flesh is a liar, my flesh is the devil it wants what it wants but my brain and my soul no better! Me knowing better god slapped me one time and sat me back down. I am in the process of healing and rebuilding from a break up. I am learning to love myself and care for myself and value myself. I made promises to myself and god about my next relationship however I allowed myself to try to bypass what god already told me and what I agreed to. He came to me though, he put the anti-lock breaks on that man made situation I almost made because I am not done with me and neither is he, and we both have to complete our jobs before I try to discover the woman that is out there for me, hence the title "Seek You Shall Never Find". When God puts your spouse in your life you are NEVER LOOKING FOR THEM. They just appear like ghost and remain in your life. No matter what you do you cannot shake them and the chemistry is beyond a spark it is a flame on a candle. You two wont have to compromise to make it work, you wont have to lose parts of yourself to be in agreement you two will just work. The only way to get that kind of love is to first love god love you and then be the same exact person you would like to enter your life and love you.
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